Overwhelmed...

I think it is safe to say that yesterday totally overwhelmed me. I intentionally planned for my Monday and Tuesday schedule to be busier so I could "have the rest of the week to recoup" (ha..or so I thought). I am not sure whether it was getting home at 9:30pm, which as anyone who knows me knows, is WAY past my bedtime, or if it was just the culmination of being in doc school, having a 'job', teaching, having two kids and a husband, mid-way through remodeling the bathroom, or the dishes in the sink that sent me over the edge. I am guessing it is a combination of all of it. Either way, I woke up feeling better, but still somewhat overwhelmed.

I remember thinking last night (as I rode home on my bike in the dark at 9:15p), 'I can't do this anymore'. While I knew it was likely to be a fleeting thought that would pass, I was definitely to a point last night that I thought I would just drop out of school and call it quits. Today has been a much better day even though Mason woke me up every hour last night. I am feeling refreshed, and as I expected the fleeting thought is gone and I am determined to finish school.

While I know I have many more responsibilities than my cohort members in school, there is nothing I would change about my children. Mya is the most wonderful child to me. Her curiosity and hardheadedness is something I appreciate more and more because I know she is so much like her mother. When she smiles and talks in her tiny little voice, it makes me so thankful to be blessed as I am. And her brother. She just absolutely loves him. The way she sings to herself when she is in bed and names all the members of her family melts my heart every time. And Mr. Mason. Man o man. If he would only sleep more. I was so spoiled with Mya because she slept through the night at 6 weeks and he is going on 10 weeks and is just now sleeping for a 4 hour period. (This may also be contributing to the overwhelmedness I assume) But he is certainly starting to have his personality show through. His smile is so hilarious because he jut grins from ear to ear and moves his head around like he is just so happy to have some attention. Even being sleep deprived, I love him all the same and can't wait to see how the two of them interact as they get older.

I hope to use this both as an outlet for myself and as a journal that I can eventually share with my kids one day. I know how quickly life moves by and how quickly I forget the smallest things that make me so happy. Hopefully this will help keep a memory of all of the smallest, most wonderful things.

Trying something new

Well I debated on whether or not to start this, but as I read others' blogs, I think...that is really cool to be able to see what is happening with them. So often I want to be in touch with so many people, but with busy life, I have a hard time finding the time to call people or get together. So here is my attempt at keeping others' up to date in my life. Besides that, I have always been better at writing about things than talking about them, so here goes!