Well, it is the evening before 2010 and I am sitting in bed as my kids are quietly sleeping in their little beds. I continue to want to blog more frequently, but for one reason or another can never find the time.
As I look back over the last week, month, year, I cannot believe how quickly life changes! I finished my first year of doc school, had a baby, and now that baby is more like a toddler. Baby Mason. What a joy he is in our lives. He is so smiley and so interactive right now. It is like he is finally starting to be his own little person. I just love him, love him. I am happy to say that because initially, I did not have that feeling. I had a harder time bonding with him than I did with Mya. I don't know if it was shear exhaustion, or the excitement of the first child that wore off with the second one, but I just didn't have the instant connection that I did with Mya. I knew I would bond with him, but it just wasn't there immediately. I just can't believe he has grown up so much. He is rolling and smiling and talking (well cooing and babbling). He lights up the room when he smiles and just has a way of having his happy mood be contagious.
And Ms. Mya. She is really starting to come into her own. As she continues to be more and more independent, Dee and I are continually amazed at how quickly she has also grown up. She is now having full conversations with us. I asked her if she wanted french fries the other day and she proceeded to order a hamburger! I didn't even mention a hamburger and she just put the association together on her own. And talking so much. She talks and talks. Sings and sings. Just all by herself, having a good time without bothering anyone. We are so blessed that she loves her naps and her alone time.
I find myself telling continually reminding myself to live in the moments. There have been so many moments, particularly lately, that I have just been enjoying the moments. As I lay and snuggle with Mason after he eats and before he goes to bed. He curls up in the fetal position, just as he was in the womb and we just lay in the warmth of one another. Mya lays her head on my shoulder, at the most random times, sitting on the couch, playing on the floor, and just says, "I love you mommy". These moments have been so special to me and I will continue to cherish the little everyday moments with my children.
I cannot end this without speaking about my wonderful husband. While I have been cherishing the moments with my children, I have been trying to be more cognizant of remembering these same things with Dee. I think it is easy for me to dismiss those small moments with him since we have been together for so long. I find myself thinking of how blessed I am to have found someone who is so patient and understanding of everything that I want to do. There are few men who would sacrifice what he has for me to chase this dream of a Ph.D. He stays at home with them when I go to work or school. Rarely, if ever, complains. How does he do that? I find myself continually trying to emulate his ways. He has taught me patience and faith, and I am continally amazed at his character.
I am making a declaration (not a resolution because those are stupid) to be more consistent with my blog. I hope to have an entry weekly to continue to keep a weekly journal of my life. To all who follow...thank you.
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