Another week

Yesterday was Labor Day and as I sat at home with my family, I found myself counting down the weeks until school was done. I thought to myself, I will just take it week by week and then, before I know it, it will be over. I felt good about this decision.

Later that night (last night) I received a phone call from my dear friend Julie, who said her grandmother just died in a tragic car accident. Remembering what has just happened to my grandfather who is recovering in the hospital from a car accident as well, it just made me stop and think about how quickly life could change. In one second, life has changed for Julie, as it did for me with my grandpa. As I laid in bed last night, I realized how much I am wasting time, worrying about getting this done for school, or that done, while I am 'waiting' to be done. I don't want to spend my life 'waiting' for something else to be done or come along. I found myself thinking of being disappointed in myself for not spending as much time with Mya or Mason these past few weeks because I have been so overwhelmed by school. And the thing that really reminded me to wake up was reading a blog written by another dear friend Christina. She is about to face the 4 year anniversary of the death of her first born daughter and her strength and optimism is inspiring. As I think about my own kids, I realize how lucky I am and how much I am not appreciating as well as I could.

Now don't get me wrong, I love my kids and spend time with them all day everyday. But I think I can do better. I owe them that much. I have been getting up at 4 or 5am to try to get work done so that when they are awake I can spend time with them. But what has been happening is that I am getting up early, but then even when they are awake, I find myself drifting off to check my email or read this section of an article, when Mya is watching Dora. While she is learning a lot from Dora (Arriba...Abajo!!! - this is hilarious when she yells this out periodically), I know she needs more of her mother's attention. I intend to change that, beginning today.

I know that life is too short (because it feels like just yesterday that I was grumbing about architecture!) and can change in an instant. I also know that I love my children and husband and want to start showing this more than I have been.

On a much lighter note, Mason was sitting in the jumparoo this morning (at around 6am) and he was jumping and jumping and (I was on the computer right next to him) all of the sudden, he stopped jumping. I turned to look at him and he was asleep! His poor little head was just dangling (along with his little legs). It was so adorable! And yesterday, Dee and I looked on as my was giving him kisses as he was sitting in the jumparoo. She was so cute looking down to him and he was looking up at her just smiling away. I can't wait to see them grow up together.