Over the past few weeks, I have been talking about feeling really overwhelmed and trying to survive. As much as I continue to try to do this, I have been really trying (and I think fairly successfully) to be more in the moment of my life. I have restructured my work and school life so I can feel less overwhelmed and more in control. For those of you who know me, this issue of control is central to my overall mental health, something of which I am fully aware.
Thinking about my kids, as I sit here at 6:30am, being awake since 5:00am, I am just so appreciative of the quiet that these mornings bring me. As much as I dread dragging myself out of bed this early, when I do, I feel so much more peaceful during the day. Once Mason has his morning routine of eating at 5:00 and then cooing and smiling himself to sleep, I can get a good 1-2 hours of quiet in the house. No TV. No music. No kids. Just peaceful sleeping and quiet. Now just as I say that, I hear Mya talking through the monitor. "Mommy" "Daddy" "Mason". Over and over. It is so adorable that she recognizes who her family is.
The other day Mason started laughing. This is such a fun time developmentally for him. I love when he shows his big smile and dimples all around his little mouth. And it is always so fun to hear babies laugh for the first time. The contagiousness of this is so much fun.
As always, I feel blessed by my family and the people around me. The support and encouragement from others, including my kids, is often the very thing that keeps me going. For this I am always grateful.
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